A little bit of embracing my weaknesses, yay…
I got a bad habit, which was comparing myself to others. Back then, I used to consider my birthday adversity when competing with the same-age kids who were born earlier than me =)) Like I must be way more intelligent and more robust after nine months or so. Hence, to outplay others, I must put 200% of myself into everything I got involved in. Then I reminded myself that it’d be okay as getting accustomed to those “unfair” stuff equipped me with a ready mentality to overcome all kinds of obstacles and competitors regardless of gender or age profile. Befriended with constantly comparing myself with others, I gradually learned the hard way that my ultimate rival is myself.
I hardly ranked 1st in the contests I participated. But at least I got a prize, mostly the 2nd and 3rd ones haha =))) Such recognition was like a warning of my laziness and lack of endeavors. When entering the job market, there is literally no more concrete competiton where the top-tiers win the medals and the likes. Instead, I looked at my peers who are able to purchase a decent car or even an accommodation for their families. Others, including both my relatives and friends, are outstanding enough to win prestigiuous scholarships.
“Who am I? What have I attained?”
Those questions kept torturing me for a few years. I thought my growth was slower than my peers, both physically and mentally =)))) The journey to my currently healthy mindset is pretty long, and if possible, I hope it could be disclosed in the form of a booklet :v Anyway, my present focus is to fix one of my problems: vocal fry.
During my high school years, I thought it was cool to “add” some vocal fry while speaking English 🙃🙃 Besides, it is labor-saving to sound clear in English when using vocal fry register :)))) Though I understand it isn’t good, getting rid of such annoying voice is never easy for me.
I’m trying hard, so dear my students, colleagues, professors, and whoever that has to listen to my speaking English, please forgive me for my stupid words and sound huhuu before I can get any better. Thank you so much.
Below is the screenshot from my highlighted story, from which I hope to spread some cheerful vibe to all of you guys:
Btw, happy new year 🎉
brillbro 